NaBloPoMo | Lovin' Life

Today's NaBloPoMo prompt:
Bob Marley asked: "Open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're living?" How would you answer him?

You know what's funny?  Today is my birthday.  And isn't this just like a question you would ask yourself on your birthday.  There are some days that you reflect on your life to see how your life is measuring up.  And birthdays are often one of them, along with New Year's Eve and maybe your wedding anniversary.

Am I satisfied with the life I'm living?  I would have to say "yes."  I feel like I'm a good person at heart.  I try to become a better person every day.  In that respect I have good days and bad days.  I think that having kids makes you want to be a better person because you want to be someone that your kids can respect.  But, I don't always hit that mark. 
So, there are days that I'm not satisfied with the way I'm living.  But, my overall life I'm satisfied with.

There is nothing in my life that I can look back on and say, "I would have done that differently", because all of the things I've done have created the person I am today.  Even the mistakes.  And I'm sure I've made lots of them.  But every mistake, every success, every person, every job, every crying jag, every giggle, every sleepless night and every gray hair have made me who I am today.  

And the person that I am attracted the person that I married.  And marrying that person created the relationship that created my kids.  And those kids drive me crazy on a daily basis.  But, they also fulfill me in a way I never thought was possible.  So, I'm happy with my life.

Again, am I happy with the way I'm living?  I think I could pray more.  I think I need to get back into church.  And I think I need to be a blessing to more people.  I am happy with the life I'm living, but I am still trying to find that elusive balance between my "outside" world and my "inside" world.  How do you not lose yourself while still being a blessing to others?  Or do you find yourself once you start being that blessing?  I think you do and I need to make my way around to that.  So, although I'm satisfied with the way I'm living, there is still room for improvement on my part.

How about you?  Are you satisfied with the life you're living?

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