"Don't cry because it's over"

Well, I'm back.  We had a wonderful, wonderful time in Florida.  The weather was pretty cooperative for every part of our trip.  We had great driving weather on the way down and the way back up.  Apparently, the day we were driving back, there was a snow storm in Ohio, but it was over by the time we got here.  We decided to drive straight through in both directions.  From where we are in Ohio to central Florida, it's a 17 hour trip.  If you factor in stops for gas and eating, it took us 18 hours.  That makes for a loooooong day.  Both times we were on the road around 5:30 in the morning and got to our destination around 11:00 p.m. 

The kids did great.  I wish I could write a blog post on how to travel with kids for 18 hours in the car, but my kids are pretty easy.  I've been blessed with kids who are pretty easy-going travelers.  We didn't do anything special.  The DVD player was broken, so they couldn't even watch DVDs.  There were some times, when they would ask "Are we on Nana Susan's road yet?"  But, other than that they were fine.  But, hey, it wouldn't be a road trip without the standard "Are we there yet?"s, right?

I'm afraid I'm a little unfocused now that I'm back.  I'm having a very hard time being back in the cold, gray weather.  And leaving my family is always a sad thing.  My husband said he tried to start conversations with me several times on the drive back up, but I was silent.  It makes me sad to leave my family and really, after 11 years together, he should know better.
  When I decided to move up to Ohio, we decided that hubby would fly down and we would drive up together with my car and some of my stuff.  I was only planning to stay in Ohio for a year.  After that point, he was supposed to follow me back to Florida, so that I could "have my cake and eat it too".   You know, be able to have the love of my life and be close to the family that I adore.  That didn't happen.  Hubby has a good job here in Ohio.  It's a job that wouldn't pay nearly as well in Florida.  Anyway!  Back to the drive up.  I remember being around West Virginia, somewhere in the mountains.  It was gray and rainy.  And I remember just being angry at him that he was taking me away from my family.  Now, it was MY decision to move to Ohio.  It wasn't his decision, it wasn't my family's decision (obviously).  It was my decision.  But still, I was angry at him for taking me away.  And bless his heart, when we got to his house, he told me that he hoped I liked it.  I looked up at the ceiling fan and just started bawling.  Can you imagine?  That poor, poor guy. 

It's hard for both of us that I live so far away from my family.  It's hard for me because I miss them.  And it's hard for him, because he has to see me sad and hear me complain.  It's really hard now that we have kids, because my family doesn't get to see the kids as much as they'd like.  And I really want my kids to know my family.   But, I made my choice and you can't always have everything.  Sometimes you have to make sacrifices.  I am blessed to have the kind of family that I am able to be away from and still know that they love me, my husband and my kids dearly. 

Now, I need to go plan my next trip home!!  And hopefully, I'm past the sadness this time.  It shouldn't last too long.  I'm too busy for that!  I have seen a bumper sticker that says, "Don't cry because it's over.  Smile because it happened."    I really think this quote was made for me!!!  I need to take the quote to heart. 

Everyone have a wonderful Tuesday!  For those of you that live away from your family, how do you feel about it?  Do you see them often?  And for those of you that live close to your family, don't ever take it for granted!!  :-)

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